Valentin & Gong Xi Fa Cai💘💟🧧🏮🎊🧨🍊㊗️🐲🐉🐎🪄

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February is here. For me, it's Asian horror month. I am going to get back to my research although I have other projects I have to do.

Edit (I copied and pasted this and for some reason, there's commas everywhere in this paragraph). This is the year of the horse. The Fire element amplifies the horse's natural traits, making 2026 a, time, of, intense,, potential, for, progress, but, also, requiring, careful, management, of, impulsive, actions,. It is a, strong, year, for, pursuing, new, goals, and, embracing, change. Lunar New Year – February 17th, 2026

Many Asian cultures will ring in the Year of the Horse! Families exchange red envelopes (hongbao) filled with money for luck and prosperity — one of the world’s biggest gift-giving traditions.

Asian Horror Game of The Evening

SILENT HILL F

I've been wanting to watch this since it came out. I love that it's Japanese themed. I have to keep reminding myself as I watch that it's not Fatal Frame. lol The gameplay is over a day long but I am willing to go for the ride.

2/2 The music in this game is very haunting... I love it.

2/3 Today, I put my bows together. I don't know how many there are but I just kept going and going. lmao

I won another Amazon gift card. hehe I haven't shopped there in a minute.

My dinner for the evening.

Spaghetti and meat balls with cheese sticks.

Japanese Horror of The Night

Exit 8

This movie reminds me of the Backrooms games. Interesting that Iwo Jima was trending yesterday and one of the actors from the movie is in this. lol

2/5 All I've been doing is Silent Hill F and making my hairbows. I've got so many to finish. Sending get well wishes off to my boy Tony Jaa. I don't want to lose anymore crushes.💔

2/6 I got my Shein shirt from Depop.

The seller took a while but I realized they were in MA. It's a 1X but it fits. I hate the smell of smoke but what White b＊tch you know, doesn't smoke?

2/7 I did the impossible. I shopped on Temu for the first time. They had supplies there that I needed for my project that Aliexpress didn't. Cheap stuff too.

Japanese Horror Movie of the Night

Stigmatized Properties: Possession

I forgot to watch this movie. The older actors were very familiar to me. Years ago, I watched a video game based on the same title.

I finished watching the first part of Silent Hill F. Should I continue?

2/8 I saw this on X about women born on these days.

Top-Tier but Challenging: 2, 8, 13, 15, 20, 26

My step sister sent me photos of her baptism. That is so nice.

2/9 My Valentine's Day hairbow are DONE! Whew! Won't be long until I am done with the Chinese New Year hairbows!

I've decided to descend on with Silent Hill F. Looks like I got to the part with the UFO. I remember seeing the preview of someone's upload on this and I was like Wow. UFO??

2/10 I found that song in that Kay Jewelers commercial!

And I love the lyrics in it!!

One thing Mom brought up last night after I took out the trash, is how dead it is outside. I said yeah it's always dead out here. And it has. Louisiana is pretty much dead. I still would like to know where 80,000 people from down here moved to. There is a for sale sign at one of the new houses in my town. I don't see how anyone can move down here with the lack of jobs.

Is it me or is Fox Zaddy looking damn good in Silent Hill F??

Whoa now! Even the actor whose face was used is sexy and Japanese too!

2/11 Today just wasn't a good day at all for me. I don't even want to talk about it, just want to pack up and leave the South asap. We went gambling today and I spotted a new machine Mom talked about.

I had a descent time with it. The graphics and music were great.

2/12 I got my older bows from the garage because I need to redo them. Not doing the Halloween and Xmas ones until around that time.

My brother spent his morning playing old school music. I'm going to post them for Valentine's Day.

Movie of the Night- Prisoner of War

I have been putting off this movie for months and glad I finally got to watch it. It's weird hearing Scott Adkins speak with his British accent. lol I recognized some of the Japanese guys. One of them being Peter Shinkoda. I remember him from War with Jet Li and Jason Statom.

2/13 Can you believe I have my fan on as well as shorts on... in February? Wow...

I was telling Mom about seeing folks getting jobs in JP and how someone said 'you gone get worked to death.' I'm like when's that person put in a job application? Please... Those are some hard working men and they don't like to disappoint their family. Mom says right. I don't know what type of job this person got but she's fortunate to be able to get one out there. Jobs are hard to find where I live.

And speaking of JP, I wish the visitors from there, will say hi or hit the donation link. lol

2/14 Happy Valentine's Day. I woke up feeling sad, but I'm always waking up feeling sad. I just miss everyone. Loneliness for not having anyone to talk to outside of Mom and my brother. I doubt this feeling will ever go away. I don't remember the last time, I woke up actually feeling relieved to be awake.

As promised, here's the songs my brother had played days ago.

Some of these songs pulled on my heart strings. Enjoy~

I thought about a convo I had with my Japanese friend back in 2015 in January.

-My friends not yet married and enjoy single life. One of my friend mama search future husband to her :P My friend married before 40 years and already given birth for baby. So dont be hurry ya:) U r nice women so only nice guy not yet find u -

I forgot all about this until it popped up in my mind last night. I was thinking about the first song. My own version would be 'Heaven Help Me through my pain as I continue my journey on Earth.' To battle my pain all alone.

I didn't know Japanese men and Black women were getting together like this.

This is a beautiful thing!

Oh wow I got a really loud ring in my right ear!

Loud ringing in the right ear is frequently interpreted in spiritual, esoteric, and metaphysical traditions as a positive sign, often signifying that you are receiving high-frequency energy, guidance from angels, or undergoing a spiritual awakening. While left-ear ringing is often associated with internal, subconscious messages, the right ear is considered the "receive" channel for external, divine, or higher-dimensional communication. 

Common Spiritual Interpretations of Right Ear Ringing:

Spiritual Awakening and Energy Shifts: A high-pitched, loud ring is often seen as a signal that you are raising your vibration and becoming more attuned to the spiritual realm.

Guidance from Angels or Guides: It is believed to be a "download" of information or a sign from your guardian angels that you are supported and loved.

External Validation/Communication: Some believe it means someone is thinking of you or speaking about you in a positive light.

Alignment and Action: As the right side of the body represents "masculine" energy (doing and creating), a ring in the right ear can encourage you to take action on your spiritual path or to be more authentic in your self-expression.

"Third Ear" Activation: Some traditions believe this sound indicates your "third ear" is tuning into higher frequencies, a sign of psychic advancement. 

I wonder who is trying to talk to me...💔

I want to include this song from days ago too.

Very good lyrics! Turns out I listened to this last year in January.

Use this day to love yourself and lend love to those who deserve it.-Xin

My PC had malware on it and I didn't know it. I scanned it and there it was. I didn't know I even had it. I have to be careful of these movie websites I go to. They are guilty of unauthorized downloads to my hard drive.

I am not going back to any of these small casinos in my city. I'm going to save my money for more important stuff, such as fixing my phone and etc.

Mom came to the door to tell me Happy Valentine's Day and handed me this new Starburst candy. I told my brother I'm going to let him make my wedding music list. lol

2/15 I've been up since one this morning. I've been watching anime like Zom100 on Adult Swim. I actually caught an episode of this either last month or in December. It's pretty interesting.

I had to retire my old PNY flash drive because it has errors on it. It hasn't been the same since the electricity tripped weeks ago in January. The Seagate external drive was fine but that switch off really effected my lil old buddy. So I had to transfer it to a Sandisk drive. I've had that flash drive since my HP laptop from 2013 that went out in 2020. I am going to miss using it.💔 My HP pc is working faster now that I've removed that flash drive and transferred everything to the newer one from 2020.

They had parades today and nope, I didn't go. I haven't been to a parade in over a decade. I think the last time I went to one, was in 2009 or 2010 I believe? No reason to go, I don't want to go around these r＊cist(Whites) and ignorant(Blacks) people.

I've finished another part of the Silent Hill F game. This ending was satisfying with Shu showing up to save Hinako. I still have more to watch.

2/16 I realized why I haven't been sleeping much, waking up in the middle of the night and feeling anxious. Yesterday was the 26th anniversary of my two cousins' death. I remember when it happened and I think I was pulled out of school. My Dad was there to comfort me. One of them would have been a year older than me. I don't want to share too much but I haven't really been the same when they passed. Dad there for me when they passed, my brother was there when he passed, and now that he's gone, besides my oldest sister, no one is here for me.

I had a dream there were constellations in the sky at night. Interpretation:

Dreaming of seeing constellations in the night sky often represents a search for meaning, guidance, and patterns in your life, symbolizing hope, divine connection, and the ordering of chaotic feelings. These vivid dreams can indicate a need to connect with a greater purpose, find clarity in your destiny, or feel a sense of awe and peace. 

Key Interpretations of Seeing Constellations in Dreams:

Seeking Order and Meaning: Constellations are patterns formed from scattered stars; seeing them suggests you are trying to find connections, relationships, or stories in the "disparate elements" of your waking life.

I made some more bows. This time, they are Japanese themed. I did finish the Chinese New Years ones. These came out beautiful! I am so proud of myself! I need to sell these ASAP!

2/17 Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!

Absolutely love these images!! I've already got my food ready for tonight and will watch more Silent Hill F!!

I got my items from Temu which were these keychains I will use for my bows. I got two dragon hair clips which one is broken. I am getting a refund on this item.

2/20 I am back with a revenge. Anyways, today s＊cked and it was also ok. I wore my Chinese outfit and folks loved it, especially Chinese. The Taiwanese man at the laundry mat spoke to me when I was leaving which caught me off guard. I had to get my phone fixed so I'm out of a hundred dollars. This is why I don't want to help nobody anymore because no one will help me. Had to dip into savings to fix this damn phone! I went to a 'Japanese' restaurant which I knew wasn't owned by actual Japanese. But the Chinese women there were very nice. One of them thought I was celebrating Mardi Gras, I told her no, it's Chinese New Year and I pointed to my hairbow I made. She grabs me and turns me around to show the other lady. I told her I have a Chinese name. She repeats to the lady who didn't speak English. The same lady told me it's a surname which I already knew but it's still my name. And I'm proud to have it. She tells me to come back and eat there. I will think about it.

Selfie of the Day

Hairbow- Japanajuku

Foundation/Lipstick- Product Test
Eyeliner- Sephora
Sunglasses- Ed Hardy
Necklaces- Claire's/Rainbow Shop
Dress- Listen Flavor X Ranma ½

I haven't worn my afro in a while. I think another thing that caught me off guard, was the fact these White guys at this repair place complimented my dress. I was like did hell just freeze over? The younger White guys NEVER say a word to me. One of them didn't know who it was on the dress and I had to tell him. The other one did. It's like that quote from a year or so ago; people won't love you until others do.

2/21 Went on another errand run with Mom. At Crapart, I picked up some rollback hair care.

My hair has been dry lately and since I didn't want to spend an arm and a leg on stuff, I got this using a gift card.

I also picked this up from Crapmart

And these were delicious! Chocolate chip scones!!

And these roses were gorgeous!

I wanted to buy these but didn't lol

2/23 I got my last item from Temu. And this will be the final time I will shop from there. I will stick with Aliexpress. I have some supplies to get but everyone is on Chinese holiday. I will wait!

2/26 Worked in the garage again. Whew! Then washed my hair and straightened it again. Still counting down to freedom.

2/27 Went on another errands run with Mom. Ended up getting some chocolate which I have been having cravings for. 

I see they are opening up more Asian businesses. I look them up and they're all owned by Chinese people, very few by Koreans. The lack of a Japanese presence in Louisiana, especially where I live, S＊CKS! Nothing against them but I am not interested in going to any of these places. At this moment, I am only interested in Japanese stuff.

I noticed that the Black grandpa demon next door only spoke to Mom this time. The last time, it was 'how y'all doing,' and of course, I didn't answer like I usually don't. I was thinking, they'll speak to her like that, and then when something happens, they are ready to talk sh＊t to her. All of this passive aggressiveness doesn't move the Fabulous 1.

2/28 This morning, I woke up feeling refreshed than I was when I got home yesterday. I had a headache no less than ten minutes of coming home. I always tend to get headaches. This morning, I ate donuts and drunk coffee(something I haven't had in a while). I found out I hadn't even opened my creamer. lmao It's been sitting, hidden in the fridge for a minute.

As I mentioned on Facebook, for many years, I've said that Black demons only seem to know how to get along with non-Black people than each other. You can view the post here.

I finally finished watching Silent Hill F and wow, what a ride this was! This game really stirred up my emotions. There were definitely parts in this that reminded me of myself and how people feel like they need to make decisions for me. Because they thought/think I'm too stupid to think for myself, meanwhile they constantly make terrible decisions with their lives. And her friends with those snarky remarks, I can relate to this as well. Shu must have some good 'd' for those women to be sweating Hinako over his ＊ss. Don't get me started on how Junko reminds me of one of my step sisters. Overall, the game was good. I wasn't bored one time watching this. I am going to miss watching this every afternoon. Once I get an understanding of the game, I will return with an update on how I feel.

Edit- Now that I've gotten a better understanding of the game, it all makes sense. It was all about an arrangement, religion and choices. I want to chime in on why Sakuko kept calling her a traitor for leaving her behind after she got married . If she got a life, identity and hobbies, she wouldn't be jealous of anyone who is married. Sakuko should have just moved on and got her own lane. Usually whenever women get married, they often leave their female friends behind. Because their female friends are just placeholders until a man shows up. That's not the case with this as Hinako loved her friends. Hinako's idea of women and men is interesting. She's a bit of a tomboy. I used to play with boy toys as well as dolls. I didn't see what the big deal was and no one made anything out of it. So basically, it was about a young girl's confliction with making a decision to marry or not. She's tripping because Fox Mask was hot. It wasn't like they were making her marry a Black man. lol Everyone's theories on the game has been interesting. I had no idea that the creator of Higurashi When They Cry made this. Makes sense if you've seen the anime. I haven't seen it in years but I do remember how dark that anime was.

And this concludes this post for this month. If you have found this post of use, feel free to share, comment and submit a donation. Au revoir~✌