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It's May. And it's cold. It has been gloomy all week. Hardly any Sun, just rain and more rain. I thought it was going to flood in my city. I was barefooted, getting the groceries into the house. It felt kinda good. lol
I got my Canon camera out and charging the battery. I need to start using it more often. This month is my Dad's birthday month. It is also AAPI month. Still going to be watching my usual Asian shows and movies.
And it's cold today! Just like I predicted months ago with the hot weather in the colder months of the year would make the hotter months colder. I'm actually enjoying it because I hate the heat.
5/2 Happy birthday Dad! I am missing you every day! I am trying out this tea this morning.
Japanese Movie of the Night- Throne of Blood
My brother recommended this movie to me. It's based off the story of Macbeth by Shakespeare which I am familiar with. It felt like a horror movie.
Video Game of the Evening- Hunted Within: The Metro
This gameplay was just a demo. But it was very interesting from what I've watched.
5/3 Japanese Horror Movie of the Night/Evening- Jigoku (1960)
I believe I've watched this before a long time ago or at least the 1999 version of it. I can't remember. But the scenes are identical to the book I just finished reading a month ago.
I was given a personal care diary on Lifepoints from April 27th to May 3rd. I hate that I wasn't able to really commit to it like I usually do but I did fill it out. I'm just over this sh＊t. I hate that I'll probably never get a job down here again.
5/4 I was in my garage again. This time, to get my colorful paper. Every time I get this stuff, I end up putting it back. I just don't feel creative anymore.
Japanese Movie of the Night- Ran
My brother said this was a good movie so I thought I'd check it out. It's based off Shakespeare as well. Tatsuya is playing an elderly man yet running around like his actual age at the time was sending me. lol Boy was that man attractive, even towards his elderly age. I was checking him out in that High And Low Movie.
5/5 Happy Cinco De Mayo! I'm disappointed that I didn't have my usual food. Maybe I'll do that sometime this month. I went outside today to take pictures of the hair bows that I made for this month.
Video Game of the Evening- Terrors to Unveil - Day Off
I got my maruchan in chili cheese noodles. Well, what little I could eat and watched;
Japanese Movie of the Night- Harakiri (1962)
One thing I've noticed about watching these Japanese films from the 60s. They are quite dark...
5/6 I can't believe I forgot this month was also mental Health month. I have been feeling down in the dumps, especially days ago. There are days where I just want to walk out of that door and never return. I have been thinking, like when I got my old photos out of my garage, I would like to return to the person I used to be. Hell, I'd like to return to the person I was ten years ago. I probably said this ten years before then. It's this sense of emptiness that I feel right now.
I lifted my weights today. I just felt like it.
Freebie of the Day
Some more Macy's perfume samples. This time, I've got all six!
Japanese Movie of the Night- Yojimbo(1961)
This was a bit of a light hearted, funny, dark humor movie. lol My brother told me this movie was remade by Clint Eastwood whose face I saw when I looked this film up.
5/7 I woke up from an odd dream about that Jamaican Youtuber who goes into my living room to open the curtains and I hear 'rise and shine.' And that's when I woke up. I'm still not feeling good. And this weather isn't helping either. Barely any sunshine, always dark and gloomy. Was it always like this? I know I have this saying(which is really a song lyric); although I love the sunshine, I still accept the rain. That's one thing... It's almost NO sunshine here!
5/8 Another stormy, gloomy day. I was listening to my fave BW on Youtube and they said a lot of encouraging messages to other BW that I really needed to hear. Everything s＊cks. My mental health is getting worse and worse every single year.
5/9 I've been depressed the entire day that I didn't want to step out of my room. I've had my door closed the entire day. It is still storming here adding more stress to me. I'm at the point that I'm questioning if I want to continue living.
I decided to check out Kamen No Ninja Akakage. I watched the older one on Youtube. The first episode is very identical. The trap music at the beginning is sending me though. lol
5/10 Still down in the dumps again. Glad it stopped storming. S＊cks that my bro missed LashBack last night but I heard it wasn't hitting on sh＊t anyway. I don't really watch wrestling anymore. I watch wrestling from Japan now.
I'm listening to Oh Honey by The Delegation. I heard it last year while watching the Until Dawn remake.
I love the lyrics to it. Definitely something I needed to hear. I was just listening to a livestream of a guy saying he's sick of his wife and the uploader saying 'but he won't leave her.' Unfortunately, this is very common with a lot of relationships/marriages. I know many Black folks only marry for the title and have children to spite people who don't/can't have any. They are sick of each other and usually failed swirlers who couldn't obtain a relationship with a White person. So they settle for each other. Clown...
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@muheediva01
I’ve never heard an Asian man say “I don’t like Asian women”
I’ve never heard a White man say “I don’t like White women”
I’ve never heard a Hispanic man say “I don’t like Hispanic women”
Etc..
But I’ve heard far too many Black men say “I don’t like black women” ๐
Nothing to be sad over. Just ignore them when they approach you.
Japanese Movie of the Night- Onimasa
Despite this movie being a bit long, it was very interesting. First time seeing Tatsuya as a yakuza. I've noticed that many of them had to transition from samurai to Yakuza in these films.
5/12 Received some disappointing news from a job I tried to apply for. I should have known I wasn't going to get that job because the Black b＊tch who interviewed me didn't shake my hand, was socially awkward and the interview felt rushed. Was the b＊tch afraid of me or what? These weaboo ass Negroes are pathetic. My brother asked me what my next old Japanese movie I'm watching next and mentioned a detective movie with Mifune in it. I told him I wasn't sure what to watch but I need something to cheer me up.
Selfie of the Day
Shirt- Ma＊rs
Necklace- Rainbow Shop
Hair Accessories- Listen Flavor and Aliexpress
Large forehead alert!
5/13 I am still depressed as hell. What happened yesterday made it worse for me. I didn't watch anything last night but another episode of Shogun's Samurai. I made a post about the job in particular and then decided to take a break from social media.
An All Japan Pro wrestling match popped up. Both Japanese wrestlers were very handsome, one of them being Go Shiozaki! Never seen him before, he's around my age and looks amazing!๐๐๐
I sat at the backdoor this evening and cried in what seems like forever. I'm just going through it.
5/16 I'm still here. I am feeling a little better and that's what I hate about myself. I have the ability to just simply move on. And things just never change.
Japanese Horror Movie of The Night- KINKI
This movie was creepy and interesting. I wish they would make more horror movies.
5/17 Another hot, boring day.
I baked my Yoshi cookies!
And I loved them!
Videogame of the Evening- The Mute House
It is Resident Evil inspired.
5/18 Still not really feeling too well. I almost lost my balance and fell. I'm over that situation from a week ago but damn, it's my health and mental health that is a problem now. I ate fruit and drunk some water. Felt all better.
Video Game of the Evening- The Tall Man Tapes
This game was giving War of the World(I need to read my book whenever I'm done with the occult stuff). Too short but I was very invested.
Video Game of the Night- The Butcher's Village
This game reminds me of a bunch of others. It also kinda reminded me of Texas Chainsaw Massacre.
5/19 Hair washing day. I feel so much better. Although I may never gain employment here, I am happy to see some product test arriving so I'll able to do what I usually do for money.
Mom was telling me earlier about how that lady who tried to talk crap to me saying 'you had it going on back then,' her brother made an inappropriate comment to her. She says this is why she doesn't go around them anymore for parties. I stopped going when that super dark skinned demon followed me into the house. The fact that the short dark b＊tch really thought I was going to that lame ＊ss party to hook up with those ugly ＊ss Black men, she's out of her damn mind! I keep telling y'all to be careful of the company you keep. No parties for me unless it's Asian. It's not safe to party with the Black demons anymore anyway because they play the same ole music and overall, they are boring!
Video Game of the Night- Don’t Play This – Every Tape Ends the Same… I Regret Playing
I didn't finish watching it because of the janky internet. I will tomorrow but so far, it was quite spooky. lol
Chinese Movie of the Night- Fist to Fist
I haven't finished it either. Will finish it tomorrow. I love Colin Chou and clicked on it immediately to watch!
5/20 Mom and I ate breakfast from McDonalds. I had a sausage egg McMuffin and she had a sausage biscuit, both us of had hashbrowns. I forgot the jelly but she had left overs. I like the McMuffin without the jelly. I had to rewash my air because that gel I put on my hair made it crusty and nasty.
I learned that one of my great nieces is in jail for trespassing and fighting. I would ask when will they learn? Threw her future away for a sibling who isn't going to protect her. Why is she fighting a woman on his behalf? He's a young man and should be able to walk away. They acting like he's a victim. Ain't no Black demon a victim! Now that he's graduated, they're doing all kinds of stuff for him when she graduated, they did nothing for her. I said yeah, she's a GIRL. What she should do is go marry a guy, drop that last name, go no contact and move on with her life. This family doesn't give a damn about girls. I WOULD KNOW!
I don't miss shopping. I don't miss going to different restaurants and eating whatever I want. I've been spending as little as possible. Some of these places have me like 'don't buy something you can make yourself at home.' That's how I'm feeling right now. Plus, I don't want to go to these places anymore.
My brother told me that he doesn't trust the Louisiana health department. I said the same thing and hated how they treated Dad when he was sick. Hiring these bum ＊ss Black b＊tches who are only in it for the money and could care less about the lives of others. It's the same when they are hair stylists. I do need to go to the doctor but I'll never see one down here. Folks of all races down here don't know how to talk to people.
5/21 Another dreary day with slow internet and cable that won't cooperate. My other eye is swollen and the other has a stye in it. It's like I can't even stand around outside without being allergic to something! I started back reading my H.P. Lovecraft book. His stories are so interesting and scary! lol
I did finish watching that game from the other night. I enjoyed it, even the message at the end about why we watch horror movies.
5/22 I had a dream about my brother this morning which caused me to go back to bed and cry.
I had to go to the bank to take care of some business and I'm thinking the old White lady ahead was going to the White b＊tch, oh no. She goes to the Black lady that I use. I ended up going to the fat, ugly White b＊tch. I inadvertently tossed the money on the counter which I didn't mean to do. I think it got to her but I didn't care. I don't want nobody screwing with my money but I don't want nobody, who clearly, does NOT know what she's doing, grinning in my face, being fake while over my money!
5/23 Not feeling well today because my period started yesterday morning. I slept good last night despite. I had coffee, haven't had a cup of Joe in a minute. I've been watching the old school Tales from the Crypt from the early 90s. It used to come on Fox 44 back in the day, a lot of stars got their start in HW from that show. I tapped out around noon but it was good going down memory lane. I don't remember most of the episodes though.
5/24 I made a new video for Youtube this morning. Things just had to be said. I watched one match on AEW Double or Nothing. I would have watched the whole show but I am cutting back on watching livestreams as they make the bill go higher. Yes, I watched the Japanese match. The White cutie who showed up at the end was the icing on the cake for me. Kyle Fletcher you say? He's cute... lol
Japanese Horror of the Night- Re/Member: The Last Night
I watched the first one a couple of years ago. Sonny Chiba's baby boy is so cute and looks just like him! I wonder if others watching this started singing ๐ต'heat of the moment'๐ต๐ซต๐พ when the day repeated. lol
5/25 Happy Memorial Day! I woke up this morning wanting to cry for some reason but no tears appeared.
Here's my plate.
I sure miss my folks being here to eat with us.
5/26 Well... Last night's dreams was interesting. I had three dreams in a row. What I got from all three is travel, date and make friends. Looks like I went to either China or Hong Kong in my first dream. In the second dream, I was dating Doja Cat. LMAO The last dream, there was a video of a girl showing off the outside of her home that looks like a forest and mountains. She lived right on top and just showing it off. I ended up going there to hang out with her. My Mom was there and of course, just like in real life, she was complaining and wanted to go home. I ended up breaking a glass and had to apologize profusely at this young lady. I've never seen her before. She was light brown skinned, slim with a large afro. Apparently, she was living with her parents in this nice home. I think there was a dream before this one that involved children. So I should have children too?
Japanese Movie of the Night- Bushido(2024)
Lots of familiar faces in this. The movie was really good. Takumi Satoh is freaking hot!
5/27 I had a dream where I was working at what looked like a retail store. Not sure if it was Sephora or SH. I had to go to a job interview for another job that looked like Spencer's. Naw.
Mom told me she was heading out so I went with her. I didn't realize my sunscreen had my face white and my clothes smelled like mildew. Ugh, I can't win for losing. A Black lady at Aldi asked me if I needed a basket and I said yes. She gives it to me. They along with White women shock me whenever they are kind. Some Black dude was trying to get my attention by dancing to the old school music but I paid him dust and continued on with my phone call. I don't know what he was doing, that music is way before his time(hell, even 20 years before mine) but I don't want nothing from y'all but to get out of my face.
5/29 I think my step brother was in my dream last night. I had to run errands for Mom today. The lady at the funeral home gave me her number. I don't want to talk or text anyone anymore. I'm just going through some sh＊t that people either don't understand or cares. She says I have a 'calm spirit.' While I appreciate folks telling me where I should work at, I've already made up my mind that I'm better off just leaving Louisiana. I went to Aldi's and Burger King. Folks were being kind to me today. They let me cross the street and everything which is very unusual.
Selfie/Outfit of the Day
Makeup- Product test(mascara), Baby Lips(lip balm), Profusion(Eyeshadow)
Shirt- Rue21
Over shirt/Pants- Shein
I didn't have time to do my hair.
I got the Star Wars Mandalorian meal from Burger King.
They didn't give me all of my food so I got a coupon. You would think White folks would get it right. At least BK will respond. McDonalds just doesn't give a f＊ck about their customers.
Tonight, I watched Hara Kiri 2011 Remake I really wanted to see the main actor cross his arms like Tatsuya Nakadai's character but he didn't.
5/30 Today, I went to Crapmart to get my cherry blossom Clorox bleach.
I used a gift card. I saw a Kuromi shirt I wanted but changed my mind. Gotta keep my money strictly for what I need. I got a sell after four months straight. This along with my online studies is the only way I can make money now. I was just walking by the mailing stuff aisle and thought if I'd ever get another sell. Wow... I can't say that I didn't try to get a job or have been trying for years. And folks got the nerve to call me lazy. Clowns.
This evening, I watched Mortal Kombat Khoas Reigns. I actually enjoyed it! Loved the Tanya/Rain being husband and wife thing instead of her being with Mileena.
They're having their night market in B.R. and I won't be attending. I didn't attend last year or the year prior. Texas, SF, LV has better things going on, at least, they have a Japanese presence there. It's mostly Chinese, K-pop and SEA stuff here. Boring. I'd rather save my money and go to theirs. Like I said last year on my Businesses I Boycott page; I ain't supporting their businesses here anymore. And Miniso was the icing on the f＊cking cake for me!
5/31 This morning, I checked out Mortal Kombat Outslaught. I agree with one person saying that they're sick of the multiverse, timeline crap. So. Am. I. You see it in almost everything nowadays. In Khaos Reigns, it looked like Thanos infinity stones and such. It doesn't even feel like MK anymore.
I finished watching the Kamen no Ninja Akakage 2025 series. I loved the show! Lots of eye candy and it kept me wanting more!
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