Konnichiwa minna-san~ Welcome to the official 2026 New Years post! Click here to continue!
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Well folks, it's 2026. How was 2025 for y'all? It had it's ups and downs. Definitely revealed the true skin of those I had around me. But towards the end, I got a glimmer of hope that this year will be better than the rest.
My Mom and step sister went to join the family for dinner but I said I was out and they respected that. I thought I was going to be lectured on how we're 'family' and sh＊t but no, they supported it and went on. It's going to be like this for the rest of the year. Not going around people who don't care abut me. There was only one person who enjoyed my company and he's gone(Dad). They go around those people and then come home complaining to me about how 'funny' they act around them. And I'm like you think????๐
As always, we begin our year with our meal ritual.
I added in some left over mac n cheese and some parmesan garlic corn. Everything was good! For beverage, it was ginger ale. lol
My cookies that I should have baked last month but was sick as a damn dog as usual! I've noticed that my appetite has changed. I only eat once a day now.
Here's some selfies
I just took them because I just felt like it.
Shirt- Rainbowshop
Undershirt- Crapmart
Skirt- Dolls Kill X Sugar Thrillz
Tights- Crapmart
Undershirt- Crapmart
Skirt- Dolls Kill X Sugar Thrillz
Tights- Crapmart
And the debut of my Playboy slippers!๐ฐ
I straightened my hair this morning. I don't really see a difference from how it looked the last time pre cut.
Oh and I did my new year cashouts! I am not pleased when how much I've made last year but just glad to get all of it.
I finally opened my Tokidoki blind items from World Market.
They're soooo kawaii!!! OMGGGGG!!
As for New Year Resolutions. I don't have any. Yesterday was the last day of the year, and the last time I am seeing the family. This also includes talking to them. I am done! I'm going to leave the past in the past, so folks trying to come back into my life(like the chick from last year), that's done and over with. Move on and get a life. I'm not dealing with nobody's children anymore. I'm over it and you end up being forgotten about or disrespected. Unless it's my own, I don't care anymore. Ignoring compliments from White femons.
1/2 Oh wow Street Fighter Alpha the Movie is on! I haven't seen this in years!
I'm in my Goyard, you go, girl
Anything with Doja Cat in it, I'm listening to it. lol
1/3 It's a windy day and I made a brand spanking new smoothie!
Got to be the smoothest smoothie I've ever had!
This evening, I checked out HiGH&LOW The Movie 3- FINAL MISSION. This entire series has been entertaining as hell.
1/4 I woke up at four in the morning and damn near missed the Okada/Tanahashi match at Wrestle Kingdom. I was lowkey cheering for Okada but I respect both wrestlers.
Well, my step sis leaves today. I gave her my number and she went on to church with Mom.
I made some Panda express inspired wonton/ragoons.
And these came out GRRREATTT!! I just saved myself a trip to Panda Express. My step bro's friend brought food and I ate the macaroni/spaghetti/rice & cheese on it. It was good too.
1/7 I found out yesterday that one of the females in the family agreed to marry a guy she met. While I think it's hilarious to see everyone's reaction to it, it's actually quite sad. Sure, I wouldn't date him(of course not, he's Black) but whatever makes her happy. I told an elder; let her make her own mistakes. Almost every female in my family, is with a man who is a bum, an abuser and/or just isn't about sh＊t. I have a feeling, if she had gotten with a descent man, they still would have thought something was wrong. Think about the situation I was in, be friending someone younger than me and how everyone was against it, treating me like I was some type of predator despite he only got close to me, thinking I was going to sleep with his gargoyle mouth having ＊ss. I tend to attract younger men because I look young. They think him saying he didn't like me was something hurtful, I told the muthaf＊cka to his face I like White men/we were just friends sir and he blocked me(but that didn't stop him from stalking me online and at the job). They act like it's insulting for Black men to 'reject' me. So what? I don't like them either and I make sure I tell them that.๐๐๐ All of those people who prayed on my downfall that year are currently suffering as I type this. Just like with the many situations the other females in the family are dealing with, their men settled for them, just like these clowns tried to with me and failed. I don't think this family believes anyone deserves better. I had to show these folks by constantly rejecting these clowns that I deserve better. All I can say is I wish her the best. I thought she was going to get an older White man at least instead of settling for Black men but hey... Why they never tell their sons and grandsons to treat women better? Things that makes you go hmm...
Bottom line is stop announcing your plans! Not everyone will be happy for you!
Freebies of the New Year
I was suppose to get six but got five this time around.
1/9 I put the laptop screen protector on my laptop. It's about a cm too short for it but it looks great so far.
1/10 My Mom's 'pastor' came this morning. I had my door shut the entire time but I did come out to get something out of the fridge. He spoke to me, I responded with 'alright' and sped off. I ended up having a nightmare about a family member last night after Mom told me he was coming over. I just don't feel a good vibe from him. I told Mom to tell that family member to be careful. Even that dream disturbed Mom.
1/11 I woke up this morning and turned to my art pad. I hadn't drawn anything in a while. I miss drawing. I used to do this a lot growing up. I was watching anime last night and thought about how I used to love this as well.
I realized I hadn't watched any video gameplays in a month so I decided to check out one.
FLESH MADE FEAR
This game was a nice throwback to old school Resident Evil games, and also Silent Hill and The Suffering. Certain parts reminded me of the first three games. There were also Hellraiser themes(I am the way- I am well aware that it's a bible verse but I first heard it from Hellraiser 3 Hell on Earth). The 80s synth was really good and creepy despite the setting supposedly being 1992??? So many plot holes like what happened to the young lady in the sewer??? The ending could have been better but overall, I enjoyed the game.
As I was preparing my Korean BBQ noodles, my step bro's friend brought some food. It was red beans, rice, cornbread, chicken and pork chops. I only ate the red beans & rice because I already had the noodles.
1/13 My items from Victoria's Secret.
Y'all know me, I love a cute gyaru print! Everything fits perfectly!
Well, what do you know... I was listening to my favorite rap song from 1999-2000 entitled Where I want to be by Shade Shiest and Nate Dogg. I love the instrumental and thought to myself; what if this is a sample? So I looked it up!
Turns out it is! And it's by Toto!!! My late Father loved this band! I had been thinking about him a lot lately. I miss him so much.๐
It was today that I realized that I suffer from vertigo.
Isolation is a way to know ourselves.
Franz Kafka
1/14 I've returned to my reading. I am reading one of my books I got months ago. I'll probably be done with this book soon too.
I wasn't sure what to eat tonight so I heated up my Progresso soup.
I ate with some garlic & herb grilled cheese sandwiches. Everything was good!
1/15 This morning, I decided to toss away some of my skincare. Some of them should have been gone.
Video Game of The Evening- ALIEN ROGUE INCURSION EVOLVED EDITION
I checked this out because someone posted a still of the android being inserted in the head. lol I was surprised the protagonist was a brown skinned Black woman with dreads. I like the part towards the end where the android Davis says 'meeting you was the best thing to happen in my life' or something like that. I thought that was really sweet!๐ฅน
1/16 I made some hairbows today. Can't wait to debut them at the store! I forgot to add this here along with the Victoria's Secret purchase. I'm getting to the point where I don't even want to update anymore.
1/17 Got my two items from Rainbow.
The second item is a bra that I don't need to add here. I hate how they take forever to get to my house! I've been shipping products for YEARS and nothing takes a damn week to get here! I guess I should shop at their stores again. I got this jacket as a Lululemon knock off. Imma have folks think I'm bougie. LMAO
Tonight, I watched The Sixth Robber. Yes, because Andy On was in it(very briefly)! The rest of the cast did a good job in this movie. I've been wanting to watch it since the trailer.
1/18 I woke up this morning and the first face I saw when I logged into Facebook, is my sister in law's post with my brother's image it. My heart nearly sunk. I showed the post to Mom and we both broke down.
One of my London t-shirts is finally getting a new home. Who recalls twelve years ago when I was obsessed with London and all things British? Boy have times changed. Sadly, that fad only lasted for three years. I went through hell to get those shirts too but I'm just not into British stuff anymore. Now, it's all things retro and East Asian. And they're here to stay!๐
Since my period has started, I've decided to check out another horror video game.
Echoes of the Living
Reminds me of the OG Resident Evil game.
1/19 This evening, I watched 100 Yards. This movie was interesting?? I noticed the women were mixed race, then again the lead actors wives are mixed race.
1/20 I checked out this Japanese wrestling company entitled GLEAT on Youtube. It's pretty good. I was doing my hair while I listened to it.
1/21 Went to the laundry mat and Crapmart. I didn't have a bad day but mentally, I am just over it. Got a lot on my mind. Here's my selfie of the day.
Hat- Windsor
Necklace- Rainbowshop
I don't know what's in this skincare product that was sent to me but boy does my skin looks amazing and youthful!
1/22 This morning, I decided to go into the garage to rearrange, toss stuff out and add bins in. I'm not even exhausted but of course, my back started hurting. I haven't lifted weights in weeks. I need to return to doing so. It was so dusty and dirty out there that I took a very high milligram antibiotic! F＊ck that! lol
Remember when this person used to make fun of you when you were a kid? Why in the hell do people hang on to crap like this? You know what I do to people who didn't like me when I was younger, make them look like a complete idiot when they attempt to talk to me or look my way. Why be resentful when the best revenge is making them feel small by not acknowledging them? And y'all wonder why y'all look so damn terrible for y'all ages. I'm not walking around, thinking about how I was bullied as a kid. I remind people it happened, a reminder that this is why I am anti social.
1/23 Did my errands for the upcoming storm this weekend. My childhood friend stopped to talk to us. We even had on the same shirt. lol She said I'm her twin. lol I often think about how close we were when we were kids.
I got my Mardi Gras and Valentine's Day supplies. They are so adorable that I can't even put them down!
As I said on our Facebook page, I am going to stop being nice to these Black cashiers. A lot of these chicks down here have personality disorders and only seem friendly when they are dealing with horribly aging White females. I look at these Tiktoks that end up on my timeline about how they think Black demons are 'played out' and etc. all the while hinting they'll still give them a chance if they find one. I don't even know why I am even bringing this up when this isn't anything new. I am just glad I don't have their longest suicide note of dating these clowns and being heartbroken by them to the point where I need to promote non-Black men. I don't need permission from them or any bitter ran through hag on who I should or shouldn't date because 'these n＊ggas won't act right, so let me pretend I like White and other races of men to make them jealous.' Just total airheads! I have no problem attracting Black men, I DO NOT WANT THEM. Had this old ＊ss demon who kept looking at me and waving at me at the grocery store yesterday like wtf. So it's fine for them to have a significant large age gap as they are older but it's an issue when he's a younger friend? These dudes are clowns and pedos, instead of being bitter, I pay them dust and like whoever I want to like. Who in the hell wants these guys as friends who'll make fun of you, take advantage of your kindness and secretly trying to sleep with you? And y'all actually date, let alone, sleep with guys like this? Then y'all remain in relationships and hold out 'hope' you'll find the right one???!! Hell naw! You ain't qualified to tell me sh＊t about who I should or shouldn't 'date!' Now THAT'S 'played out!' Grow up!
Demo(But)... One Black chick did put out a good video stating; Black folks shouldn't be calling anyone ugly when they will f＊ck anybody and anything. This is why I don't feel bad about a damn thing they got to say about me. Same thing goes these Black Liliths who claim they don't do 'pink peen' but behind their Black husbands/bfs back, they are you know. You ain't heard that from me. lol๐คญ
Tonight, I decided to watch The Shadow's Edge. Oh man Jackie Chan does it again! This movie was quite dark... I don't think I've seen a dark JC movie since The Foreigner and Shinjuku Incident. Big Tony did this thing too. Some of the young fellas in this were quite cute as well, they looked like pop stars. lol
"Better to have regrets... than to make mistakes"
It's going to be a cold week. I am glad that my supplies are arriving so I'll have something to do at home. These people are conveniently going out, purchasing things like it's a damn apocalypse coming. Sales were low last month but they've convince folks to go out and purchase everything knowing we've had cold weather for decades down here. Something fishy is going on, aside from the average Southern b＊tch's underwear. lol
1/24 Went to Dollar Tree and picked these up.
Skin Nutrition Rice Ferment Night Booster, Happy Skin/Healthy Skin Berry Glowy Body/Face Serum, Sheer Melon Body/Face Serum & Cherry Sparkle Toner
I had a gift card to spend so this is what I spent it on.
1/25 We're freezing our bells off down here. This evening, I decided to check out this Japanese/Korean throwback.
Fighters in the Wind
I've never heard of it but of course, I know who the Japanese bad guy is. That man has looked good for years! Even as an elderly man, he's fine as hell! Out of all of the East Asians, Japanese men tend to look hot as hell at an elderly age!
1/26 This evening, I decided to check out The Old Way. I've been forgetting to watch it and finally had time to watch it. I wish Max Jin Zhang would put out more movies.
I finally finished watching Echoes of the Living but too bad the player ran into a glitch at the end so I wasn't able to see how it ended. Oh well. I did enjoy it for what it was.
1/27 Our pipes froze but I improvised to put heat on the pipes indoors. Worked like a charm!
Anyways, here's my parcel from Shein.
I am going for the Japanese aesthetic this year. I couldn't get the picture of the other dress I got, it's ok looking. I am debating on what I should do with it. I've been wanting those leggings for years but they were sold out years ago. When I logged into Shein for the first time in almost a year, I saw they had it in stock and purchased it immediately along with the Kitsune top!
1/28 Looks like it's the end of the road for me shopping in Japan. I was just sent a bill from FedEx regarding tariffs. I was able to pay it but damn. It's been fun. If only I lived there, I wouldn't have to pay sh＊t!
1/29 Video Game Of The Evening
CARNIVAL MASSACRE
A throwback to old zombie games back in the 90s. I can't wait to see the latest Resident Evil video game!
1/30 Ran errands with Mom today. Here's what I noticed. When I walked into the funeral home, not one person aside from the lady who takes our money, spoke to me. And these were elderly Black people. They have this mindset that you, as the younger person, must respect them and they'll decide, if they want to respect you in return. This is another reason, why I don't attend church. When you are around older Black folks, they are condescending and like to belittle you. I was a guest, you were suppose to greet me. I just walked in, did my business and walked out. Reminds me of those 'church' folks who came to fix our ceiling and how they acted when I walked in.
Selfies of the Day
Hair Accessories- Shein, Claire's, eBay
Necklaces- RainbowShop
Dress- It's by FashionNova but I got it from eBay
Necklaces- RainbowShop
Dress- It's by FashionNova but I got it from eBay
Got this from Sonic.
I am still practicing wellness but damn, i had to get this. lol I was going to chill on eating out. I also got Mom some free chicken nuggets from Crapdonalds. My points are expiring for Burger King but I refuse to go to the one in our city because of the Uncle Tom and his retards, felons and junkies he has working there. I'd rather have them expire than give that ape my business.
1/31 Videogame of the Evening
SKINFREAK
I love these types of games. I really do.
Freebie of the Day
Cerave Hydrating Cream-to-Foam Cleanser
And this concludes this post for this month. I normally conclude the post with what winter looks like Tokyo but I couldn't really find any photos but one.
And it's beautiful! Have a happy new year! Be sure to comment, share and submit a donation. Au revoir~✌