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Monday, June 30, 2025

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Bonjour a-tous and welcome to the June/Summer 2025 edition of this blog post! Click here to continue.

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What's in store for this month? Aside for pride🏳️‍🌈🌈, I will be going back to dressing in Gothic/Punk attire. I might explore other Korean/Japanese owned businesses. All I can think about is getting away from here. I'm going to return back to my research so I can get just a little closer to my new story I want to start on. I have other projects I'd like to get started on.

I finished reading one of my books. Have to order some more to keep me busy and my mind off the bizarre situation that's going on.

I did my middle of the year cash outs. I want to cash it all out and haul *ss!

6/2 I need to start on my adult themed story. I was told years ago by this gorilla nosed heffa who I lost contact with over ten years ago who decided to pop back up into my life, that best seller books are in pasted tense. So I look at the NY best seller for the most popular book at the time(I don't need to name it) and the author wrote it in the 'present' tense. I swear these Black femons are nothing but sabotagers. You still haven't published your books so how are you qualified to tell me how to write mine?

BTW I read a couple of pages of that book and it's TRASH! Maybe it's because I read more scholarly type of writing but this book is trash!

I'm going to make some more horror t-shirts. Looks like the tariffs has eased up so I was able to get what I could. I'm also going to restock a couple of horror pins too.

6/4 This morning, I washed my hair. I've had some minor breakage but not like how it was last time when I did my hair. These vitamins have been working since I've been taking them more consistently.

6/5 I flat ironed my hair today and eh, this new product isn't any different from the other products I use to straighten my hair. I glad I got it with a coupon. OGX is still a good brand though. Maybe I just need to cut my hair again.

6/6 After I ran some errands with Mom today, I decided to order four books to read for the summer. I also got some cookies and cookies n creme ice cream.

6/7 The folks from my Mother's church came over to help her fix the roof. I'm grateful that they did but here's the thing. That same guy asked me and my brother to come to the church, they have snacks and wear whatever they want. As much as I am grateful for what they've done and the fact that he wants us to come to church, I said no once again. My brother answer exquisitely, we are SPIRITUALISTS. Which we are. That's considered a sin and witchcraft. But I'm not done... Mom made me speak to them and I said good evening. One of the Black ladies turns away and walks out, and the Black older dude walks out. Yes, they were leaving but I had a feeling they didn't care for me too much which is fine. And here's your real answer as into why I never attend church. It's nothing against god or the religion itself, it's the people. The misinterpretations of the bible, the preying from the men and the women being  judgmental ran through b*tches! I ordered the bible yesterday. And like they said at the ending of the movie Stigmata, you can practice God within you or anywhere, not just in a building. He made me uncomfortable coming to my bedroom door and opening my mosquito net. My Mom may not know his intentions but I know.

In this blog, I never preach about my spiritual beliefs, I leave that up to the viewer. I tell people to be whoever you want to be and not let anyone tell you differently. I put my moon necklace on that I haven't worn in months. And as I've said many times before the majority of bigots and r*cists practice some type of religion(it's usually Christianity). Take that with whatever.

My great niece told me where she wanted to go to and I want to go there too.

6/8 I thought about one of my favorite games from 1992 and had my brother listen to it to see if he remembered it. I was shocked to see that he did. lmao Listening to it made me a little sad and made me think about my Dad. He used to rent all of those games for me.

Since I'm burnt out, I decided to check out this movie Deer Camp '86.


Yes, the title reeled me in. I actually wasn't disappointed in this. It was both hilarious and horror at the same time. lol That Noah Lalonde is super hot! Got a nice *ss too when he kneeled at the fire place. lol

6/9 I was thinking about that classmate's mother I ran into last week. It's funny how the classmates who didn't like me in school are always happy to see me but the ones who claimed they did like me, want nothing to do with me. This is why I tell people I never had friends in school, just classmates. I don't ever let these people think I miss them or anything. The only time I think about them is content for my Youtube channel. I have been alone for twenty years and not one year has passed where I say 'I sure miss my -friends- from school.' I'm glad they moved on, just stay your nosey *sses off my social media though. The only person who enjoyed my company is gone now(my Dad). I don't want to reconnect with people who hated me in school. Just move on!

6/10 I went on an errand mission for Mom and she came along. Ran into my childhood friend. Someone I could actually call a friend from my past, not these classmates. I've been getting compliments today. I've been ignoring the ones from Black men because uh yeah, I don't like them and they are always available. One was looking for me through the aisles and said I love your shoes young lady. No answer. Went to another store and one says 'you are really pretty, you hear me?' I sped the f*ck on. What do you mean do I hear you? Black women can't raise sh*t! Anyways, we got food from Panda Express and the only  person I actually acknowledge as far as men was the Asian guy working there because he smiled at me(they are usually not friendly down here, at least, the older guys aren't). The food was really good as always.

The White b*tch who was a cashier was rude but I wasn't going to allow that to ruin my good mood. Black women and White women have issues which is why I don't deal with any of them.

What was I wearing? Pride of course!

Selfie of the Day


Hairbow- Dollar Tree
Necklace(I made it)- 6% Dokidoki
Glasses/Smiley Face Pin- Party City(RIP)
Overalls- Crapmart
Shirt- Old Navy

This new game at the casino was kinda fun.

6/11 My three books from Amazon arrived for summer reading and research!

The Hour of Meeting Evil Spirits: An Encyclopedia of Mononoke and Magic (Yokai)
The Most Complete 150-Book Apocrypha: Featuring 1-3 Enoch, Jasher, Giants, Pseudepigrapha, Deuterocanonical Texts, Apocalypses, Gnostic Gospels, Sibylline Oracles, and More...
The One World Tartarians (Black and White): The Greatest Civilization Ever Erased From History

I read one of my other research books and boy, I am getting so many ideas for this horror story I've been working on. I've finished some of the chapters years ago but I still have to go back to add more and do more editing.

6/12 My KJV bible arrived but it's not the one I want. I went ahead and ordered the one I really need. I will keep this bible because it's easier to read.

6/13 As I'm doing my demonology studies, I came across a true event in it that caused me to look it up to see if it's a movie. Turns out it was. And guess what? I actually seen this movie about twenty years ago! My Dad owns this movie(where it is, I have no clue)! I remember how insane this movie was! Am I going to watch it again? Naw. lol

6/15 I want to wish a happy Father's Day to whoever is reading this blog, and also to my Father and my step brother. I said this to Dad earlier this morning and got a knock on the wall. Glad to know he's still here.

I opened my fortune cookie and it read: Your kindness give others strength.

Kindness has always been a curse of mine. I need to stop being kind though.

6/17 I had a dream last night that I was scr*wing Logan Paul. WTF?? HELLLLL NAWWWW!πŸ˜­πŸ˜‚πŸ˜΅

6/18 This evening, I read The Unnamable by H.P. Lovecraft followed by the movie. I hadn't watched this movie in years. It somewhat stayed true to the story with some alterations being the college students being trapped and unalived in the house.

6/19 My hair straightening has been an epic fail. I will put off straightening it until winter. You know, when it's cold and my hair won't sweat out. I'm going back to my naturally curly hair!

My second bible arrived today. In the rain... And it's the bible I needed! It's heavy too! They even included a leaflet of the original. Wow! I need to put this in a sleeve so it doesn't tear up!

6/20 Something has been going on with my mood these past few weeks. I am starting to distrust everyone around me. I read this forum discussing the negative energy around:

I used to love the idea of getting out and exploring new things in life. Now I just want to stay internally focused at home and away from people.

This was me over twenty years ago. I used to love going out to explore. But I never would have saw myself as this anti social person who wants nothing to do with people. The Xin from the 90s would have been like wtf?

6/21 This evening, Mom and I made our own BBQ meatball hot dogs. 


Retro Game of the Evening- BLOOD MALL 

Short game but love the retro game and the way that mall looked. Gave me flashbacks of the 90s because I barely remember the 80s.

After watching this, I started on my Tartarian book. I know I have others to read but I've been on a role with getting through these books. lol

6/22 Since we've rearranged and removed stuff, we got so much more room in the living room to exercise. Well, I do because Mom doesn't exercise. But have you guys noticed something? Have you noticed that in my earlier blog posts, around this time, I would have lots of free products to share? But this past few years, I don't get anything anymore. And this basically s*cked the happiness out of this blog. I used to be so excited to see something arriving in the mail because I couldn't wait to share with y'all. But now, I don't get anything but small samples and perfume samples.

I've watched the Substance this evening and wow this movie is one of the grossest movies I've ever watched in a while! The last gross movie I watched was Society from 1989. Despite it's grossness, it really highlights the insecurity about White women and their idea of ageism. Ageism exists in Black women too, of all ages. With Black women it's the fact that a lot of them, along with Black men don't live that long anyway. That's why it's easy for them to clown someone's age.

My favorite quote from this movie was this one: It gets harder each time, to remember that you still deserve... to exist! That this part of yourself is still worth something! That you still matter!

I thought this quote was very powerful. Getting older is a blessing. Instead of worrying about looking 'young' you need to focus on being healthy and still being able to move around. Instead you want to trash other women because they don't want to center men or they don't want to be your stupid friend. People can smell low self esteem and desperation like cheap perfume. I don't like being around women with issues, I tend to distant myself from them. They want to push me into the arms of older men and I simply refuse! Yes, the same shit* they used to do to me when I was a f*cking minor! What I mean by older, 60+. No thank you. None of these men look like Donnie Yen so you can take your goofy, broke, dusty *sses with those worm filled *ssholes! IN conjunction with the ageism, it's the insults to my body by these bad built, pile of bones UGLY women! Ladies, I'd choose my body over being ugly and bad built like you any day! What's my favorite line on here? Please love yourselves... You gotta stop letting these sorry, ugly, horribly aging smelly colon having *ss men turn you against other women! I could go deeper and make a video on this.

My second fortune cookie says: Good health is a worthwhile pursuit.

6/23 I woke up from an evening dream about this  hot Chinese dude I saw in one of the Fung Bros' video. I woke up like whew! I can't describe what happened because of sensitive *ss Google Adsense!

6/24 I washed my hair today. No more heat for my hair until the winter time. But that cold weather will frizz my hair up like heat but with all of these products, I can't let them go to waste. Happy to report that there was barely any dead ends.

Aww the elderly Asian man at the washing mat asked where I was. lol Imma see him tomorrow.

6/25 It was wash day for us. I did it alone. The Taiwanese elderly man walks up to me and waves at me. Here's my pride clothes of the day.



Hairbow- Japanajuku 
Necklace- Rainbowshop
Arm Warmers- ACDCRag
Dress- Rainbowshop
Sunglasses- Claire's

And my skincare is from Tatcha and L'oreal.

I noticed that while I was at the washing mat, I was leaning to the side on the wood. I was just thinking about everyone, thinking about life itself. Maybe I'm just waiting on it to rain again so I can go out in it.

People will love you until other people love you too.- GR

I need to do a private video on this because it makes a lot of sense.

Tonight, I watched I Saw The Devil. I haven't watched this movie in years and forgot how depraved it was. But man was Lee Byung-hun absolutely gorgeous! I loved him in G.I. Joe and always thought he looked like a Korean Ken Barbie!

Whew!

6/26 Tonight, I watched Parasyte: Part 1. I remember watching the anime years ago. I might have to check out Tokyo Ghoul live action soon.

6/27 Pride outfit of the Day Pt. 3


Hat/Shirt/Leggings- 6%Dokidoki
Necklace- RainbowShop
Arm Warmers-ACDC Rag
Sunglasses- Claire's

I saw this quote earlier on YOUTUBE:
I’ve never asked a WW about her hair. Or complimented her on how smooth and good her skin looked. Never went out my way to bother one or even make friends with one but these are all things they have done to me.  

Yes to all of this. I never compliment them or ask them about anything. I don't need to because I'm too busy admiring my own damn self! I have not made a WW friend since 2001. Don't need them as friends because they are useless, only as customers.

6/28 My fortunes from Panda Express:

3/26/24-Your thoughts are highly regarded
10/3/24-You will find new ways to say thank you this week
3/1/25-Friend admire your strength
6/10/25-You are a bundle of buzzing energy, always on the go

I didn't see any of this until I browsed my account. lol

6/30 After I did the maintenance for my hair, I cut my ends. My hair looks so much better. Got tired of those strings hanging down.

And this concludes this blog post. I apologize for it being super late. If you've found this post of use, please feel free to comment, share and submit a donation. Au revoir~✌