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Whew! July didn't waste time coming here! I washed my hair and gave it a blowout(pause). Boy was I sweating! I'm glad I'm not the only one who prefers the winter over the summer. I hate the heat! It actually rained today and we were in the dark! The power eventually came back on. I was thinking days ago about how much I hate going to Baton Rouge because it reminds me of my brother. I'm not even exaggerating. I really hate everywhere down here! I don't understand why we just can't leave...
7/3 I went on a small errand run for Mom. Check out my FB page on the right to see what I said. I don't respond to 'pimp' talk. I am NOBODY's baby but my mother's. I hate when men call me baby, I hate when women call me baby. Just a lack of respect and it's gross!
This evening, I checked out GLEAT. I love Japanese wrestling!
7/4 Well today is the 4th and it turned into a disaster. I was going to dress up but untangling my jewelry took almost three hours for me to complete. Yes, you heard that right! THREE HOURS! All because I want to sell some of them. Then later when I attempted to make Korean hot dogs, the cheese that I had on hand was TRASH and ruined the entire experience! Never again. I should have just bought what i needed instead of using that useless ＊ss cheese we already had.
Watched GLEAT again but was barely into it because of my failure with the hot dogs.
7/5 It stormed today and knocked the power off again! My mouse to my laptop has stopped working. I've had that thing since I got the laptop. It's been with me when I spent the night with Mom at he hospital two years ago. ~sighs~ RIP mouse
7/6 I ordered some supplies today. I need to get my hands busy again because my mind is going through a lot. Plus, I'm ready for Halloween.
7/8 Haven't been up to much. Still feeling sadness about my loss. I just need to get creative again. Been watching New Japan Pro Wrestling and trying to enjoy myself. I logged into my IG. I haven't logged in a month. I don't think I want to use it anymore.
7/9 Had a dream last night with my Dad in it. I really miss him.
7/10 I'm still here.
I haven't taken a photo in a while and just felt like it. No makeup or skincare on. No filter either outside of bg blur.
Tonight, I watched Night Patrol. I have no idea what to think of it. CM Punk played that White r＊cist cop way too convincingly. lol
7/11 I spent majority of the day watching Twin Peaks. I've never watched it before but the theme song sounds so familiar! I hadn't heard this song since the early 90s! I think the song was for an advertisement but who knows? It may have been for the show. It's hella popular and this was my first time watching it. It's strange... lol
7/12 I finished the last episode of Twin Peaks and started on season two. This show is really weird.
Tonight, my brother got me watching The Towering Inferno with Paul Newman, Steven McQueen and etc. It reminded me of how hot White men were even back in the golden age. Nowadays, they are ugly with those stinky beards and just overall, have no respect for women.
7/13 I ordered four more books from Amazon. I am very dedicated to my research. I think this is all I need for my books. I was already done purchasing books for my other research.
7/15 Last night, I finished reading one of the PDF books I was reading. It was quite dry but I got the information I needed out of it. I had a dream last night about Timothy Chalmelette. I was in the car with mom driving to this stop sign in this suburb when I saw him raking leaves. I said I have to get out and help him. He looks up to see me and stops. I walk up to him and he places the rake down. He opens his arms wide and I embraced him. He wasn't done, we hugged for a minute until his hands roamed my back down to my butt and picks me up. My legs were wrapped around him. Why do this in front of Mom in the car? LMAO
Some supplies arrived today. I do have more stuff I want to order but I will wait til around September to do so.
7/16 I woke up to Keep it Playa by Slim Thug and Ray J. Not sure why.😵💫 I finally got back on my bike. No excuses but I need to be consistent.
I continued on with my research book. I am almost finished with it. It will be for sale over at the store.
7/17 Boy, these dreams keep being weirder and weirder. I was with my folks at the house when at night, these UFOs were flying around, trying to beaming folks up. We were scattered and running everywhere. I ran down the street after I saw this young Black couple running that way. I ran to my childhood's area and tried to run to a house down from there when an angry dog stopped me when it barked. I climbed on something, then to her roof while it tried to beam me up. I ended up in a bin and closed the lid. Not sure if I was under the carport or not. I woke up and it's day time when this Black lady asked me why I was in there. I think I told her. I think my other brother was there and he told me he was looking for me.
This morning, I was chilling with Mom. I drunk my slimming tea. She told that her friend said 'tell my girl I said hello and I love her.' Wow... I wonder how my mother feels about this. And speaking of childhood friend, she pulled up at the house and spoke to us. lol
7/18 I woke up this morning after dealing with a pain in my arm from defrosting the freezer. I'm tired and I wonder if I'll get enough of the sh＊t that's going on. I think about what was told to me yesterday morning. What I need in life is love.
Two of my books arrived here unexpectedly. Amazon is becoming unpredictable now. Some of my supplies arrived. I will just order other stuff later on this year.
I finally got around to watching Bloodhounds 2. And wow am I blown away by it! Damn! Not only by the eye candy but the overall action! I only watched four episodes because I don't want to spoil myself. lol My old crush from the early 2000s Bi Rain omg... Dude still looks amazing but why I thought he was older? He's only four years older than me. lol
7/19 My three books form Amazon arrived which shocked the hell out of me. When it said 'out for delivery.' In my Stewie voice, I said what??? Just have one book left.
Finally watched G1 Climax and then one episode of Bloodhounds. Whew, I am loving this show!
7/20 I slept pretty peacefully last night. I usually wake up around one but not this time. With the amount of stress I am under, I am really surprised. I washed my hair and was again, surprised that I didn't experience much breakage.
I've been helping Mom with replacing the old refrigerator with the new one. I was sweating my ＊ss off! I went to Sonic to get BOGO Sonic double cheese burgers. I had to use my nose spray because it's so dusty in our old garage and it was killing me! I hate having to take over for my Dad being gone. It's so unappreciative. For once, my back wasn't hurting and that was worrying me. How was I able to lift and move the fridges like that. I don't understand my strength sometimes.
7/21 Another freezer had to be thawed out. I went to Dollar General, Dollar Tree and Crapmart. I found some interesting stuff.
Really didn't need this stuff but I am getting into more studies so I'm earning more than what I'm spending.
The White b＊tch at the bank is still at it. I posted it here. I hate that woman, I hope one day, she'll realize this and leaves me alone. I also got AmberGlow Multi-Peptide Serum for Hair and Eco Gel Boosters Mix in Oil Serums(one for Curl Review and the other for Strand Restore) from Dollar Tree.
7/22 Day number three with housework. I went ahead and reported that b＊tch one more time to the bank. I will record her boss.
I had a dream where I was interested in this Japanese guy and I think he was a business guy. I couldn't talk to him because he was busy talking to other people. So I ended up meeting him at the back of this restaurant and we talked. I think we were hugged up or something. I saw twenty-four packs of sodas and then that part ended. 🎵Make time for love🎵
My fabrics arrived today. I wouldn't have known they were out there had Aliexpress not informed me. lol I also got another sample from PM.
It's Zyrtec!
I have one episode left of Bloodhounds 2. Whew, this show is intense and brutal! Rain is so scary in this series! Reminds me of Nicholas Tse, who I hadn't seen in over a decade and the first time I'm seeing him again, he was also a villain. I noticed that when Hwang Chan-sung spoke English, his accent reminds me of Japanese accent. He isn't the first one, I've noticed that a lot of Korean men sound Japanese when they speak English. Not complaining, I love it.
7/23 Mom tells me to look out of the door. I saw a white van in front of the annoying neighbor's house. Are they moving? Before anyone thinks about cheering... WE NEED TO MOVE! I loved this post on my Facebook page. There are no job growths down there, just a bunch of Chinese owned businesses popping up who only hire young people. The other places aren't paying worth a sh＊t either!
This evening, I have been reading one of the Japanese folklore pdfs I have. I haven't heard back from the ＊sshole at the bank. I guess I will start recording myself every time I enter. I tried to find the b＊tch on Facebook but she doesn't have one.
7/24 AI messed me up today. I ended up calling a customer service line. They forwarded me to the manager. I hung up in his face. I went on their website and had someone to tell corporate to contact me. They ended up calling my mother because I am over her finances too. They are going to escalate it. They need to do something. I was fired from my first job for less! I said this is borderline bullying.
I will finish watching the rest of Bloodhounds 2. I'm just not ready to finish it. I have been enjoying it. I decided to check out Song of the Samurai - Chapter: Youthful Days in Edo. I've been wanting to watch it since Yuki showed a scene of it on his Instagram. A lot of familiar faces, including Jun Matsumoto! I saw those eyes and automatically knew who it was! It's been years!
7/25 This morning, I had the displeasure of dealing with my step sister, her vulgarity with her coworkers(including a White male who she claims she's not into, read this post about Black women like herself here) and her bad breath. She tried to wheel me into her vulgarity until I shut that down. I know she has arrested development and doesn't know how to grow up, but don't bring a mature, classy woman like myself into your wild world of immaturity with your low life vagabond special friends you are conversing with. I never treated my coworkers like friends. Because they weren't friends. I am a competitive person, always have been. We are competing for the higher positions so therefore, your permanent position to me, is beneath me.
My former childhood best friend was having a boil and Mom and I were at her house for a short period of time. It was weird going to her house because I hadn't been there since the early 2000s when her Mom was alive. Sometimes I want to talk to her but don't know what to say. She's like three years older than me.
I wasn't feeling good today. Took an aspirin and drifted off while I was watching the G1 Climax 36. Along with the stress of wanting to get out of here, is also taking a toll on me.
7/26 I am still not feeling well today. Getting old s＊cks! I did watch a couple more episodes of Song of The Samurai. I also watched the NJPW G1Climax 36.
Here's an old archive of dreams I've had of Asian men in the past. I used to have a previous blog post about Interracial dreams which I took down years prior to me finally moving on from White men. I spotted it while editing so here's the dreams I've had! Enjoy!
Tuesday, July 27th, 2004- I had a strange dream yesterday. This cute Asian guy took me on a date. He picked me up in his car and we stood with his friends at the movies. It turned out that the movies were full or sold out so he grabbed me by the hand and we ran with his friends upstairs where the crowd was. But then the cops threw us out. So he and I were sitting in the back of the car. I sat close to him, kissed him on the cheek and then we ended up kissing.
Nov. 24th, Mon. 2008- I think I had a dream that I had an Asian bf. I was wearing some boots with heels so I was the same height as he was(I'm guessing 5'7). As far as I can remember, I was walking behind him in an aisle in a store clothes. He stopped and waited for me and I put my arm around his and walked with him. He was helping me browse for clothing. He saw a female family member snatching for some and he pulled it away from her and gave it to me. xD I gave the purple/pink sweater to the Asian guy and he went to the register to pay for it. I went to the register and when we were outside, he stopped again and told me to hold his hand. I saw my nephew and this black car was backing up on us. The Asian guy ran ahead of me. lol My nephew was like hey @ the car. We all got into the car. *sighs*
Dec. 26th, Fri. 2008- Oh man, I liked the dream I had last night. I was in the backyard with this Asian guy, he looked like Hiroki Narimiya. He was sitting in a desk, and this Asian chick, who looked like this chick from Canada on Myspace was in my parents room. She was closing the curtains and I told him to look at her. He wouldn't. We were doing something and I chased him to where my brother's window was. He lied down, and I lied next to him, we made out. WOW! xD O.O I can't even explain the ending cuz he was clowning with some other Asian guys. He turned and made a face at me like he hurt his hands or something. Awww lol
August 1st, Wed. 2012- I met up with a Japanese guy at Taco Bell while walking from, I'm guessing is a store. lol He was lean, tall with yellow complexion. We were a bit awkward together. We saw these Asian guys, one being a cop, talking to another one. I told my bf that he was Japanese too. I sat at a table while my bf ordered the food and came to join me. The last part was so silly that I won't even talk about it. lmao Ah well, I guess I will! I looked outside of the window to see a movie set and these arrows flying at the restaurant. I think he shielded me or told me that it was a movie.
Feb. 19th Wed 2020- Another scene, I was with this Asian guy. I was searching through this box and came across a beautiful ring that was silver, shaped like square and in my favorite color; amethyst. The Asian guy was standing next to me, he pulls a ring box out of his back pocket and opens it. He asks me if I would marry him. I said yes and ran into his arms to hug. I was standing somewhere and this ring was bigger than my hand I mean huge. lol
Anything after that, are recently on here!
7/27 I slept good last night. I had a dream and my Dad was in it. He's been showing up lately in my dreams. Probably those loud noises in the house are also him. I think he knows what I'm going through with that f＊cking bank as well as me struggling to get it together health and financially wise. I'm going to eventually have to go with my step sister in West Louisiana. I think also in the dream, I was packing my suitcase. I was in a city that even caused me to look up and say I love my city. That's something you'll never hear me say about where I am.
Speaking of moving, yep, my neighbors are indeed moving. I wonder if they're going to Mississippi(the last place I'd want to live at)? Would love for us to move away from here. There is nothing down here but a bunch of dumbasses still living in the f＊cking past(alleged classmates, people who remember me as a kid but I don't remember their silly ＊sses and etc.). This place just s＊cks!
My last book arrived today. Here's a list of books I ordered:
A History of Japan: From Stone Age to Superpower
Hidden Horrors: Japanese War Crimes in World War II (Asian Voices)
Battles of the samurai
Samurai Death Cult: The Dark Side of Bushido
The Palace of the Dragon King: a Manual of Myths and Monsters (Yokai)
The Book of the Hakutaku: A Bestiary of Japanese Monsters (Yokai)
The Samurai
Yep, all about Japan.
7/28 I had another dream with Dad being in it. I don't remember it but he was in it. I told Mom I've been dreaming about him all week. He's worried about me...
7/29 I had another weird dream! First, I was at this Japanese wrestling event. Then I ended up at this house where these Japanese folks were cleaning the floors. There was a clique of them together. As I'm going to my living room(not sure how I got there), I received a phone call from who I now think, is my deceased cousin. I recognized the voice after I woke up. She says hey and I told her that I couldn't reach Mom. Then the phone dropped but she was still on the line. I go outside and walk towards my childhood friend's house. I could see one of the Japanese guys with a rifle in his hand, standing at the threshold of my house looking at me. She calls me back but I wasn't able to answer the phone for some reason. I kept walking, almost at her house when I turned to see him aiming the gun at me and I take off into her yard. I yelled out her name, she had the door open and runs to open the gate door and I ran in. We ran into a bedroom, I guess is her parents' from what I can remember. I haven't been inside of their house in years. He gets inside of the house and he grabs her. I had a large wooden spoon in my hand and I hit him with it. He collapses on the bed and she wraps her legs around his neck to braid his hair. He went from looking like a Japanese dude to an albino boy. ??? The Japanese crew were watching from the hall. Ok....
I got a message on FB from my sister in law asking me if I wanted her harlequin books. I said she should sell them online. She says she can't believe she hadn't thought of it and thanked me. Yeah, don't throw those books away, they looked brand new. Sell em!
7/30 A big happy birthday to my late brother. We went to the grave yard after we went shopping. I cried a little, I had to fix the flowers in the ground for him. I am not feeling good. I don't know what's wrong...
7/31 Another hot ass day! I've been up since two this morning! I started off my morning with watching Shogun's Samurai then later, I read the pdf of a Japanese book I didn't want to buy. I can't afford it right now so I downloaded the pdf. I am almost finished with it. I've been reading it for hours. It's been helping me through what I got going on.
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