Ohayo Minna-san~ I know that on my private Twitter account, I said that I was going to make a dedication video for Paul Walker but I've decided to write a post instead. TBH, my voice is changing... I might be sick, I don't know... My old PC is slow and acting up, believe me, I wanted to make a video. But I feel that it's appropriate to write a post here instead... This post may offend...(I wrote this post earlier this morning)
It is really quiet and dismal at home. I know that it's midnight, but you can really feel the sadness in the atmosphere. My family knows all about my Walkerism fandom from 2004. He became a household name here because of me. Oniichan gave me a big hug, and allowed me to cry on his shoulder. I will take this time and talk about how much I adored this man to his unexpected death yesterday evening.
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Paul William Walker IV was the second face of my interracial webpage. I coined the phrase Walkerism from a shrew who lived in New Orleans, but I take 100% credit for it!© While Stuart Townsend was on the main site, Paul Walker was on the interracial stories section. I even made a layout for that blog, but for some reason, I did not upload it to my Photobucket account, along with the other old layouts from back then... It was cute, I think I had about four photos of him and the entire layout was purple(my favorite color at the time). In the background, you'd hear Right On by TQ. I wrote a fan fiction about him and Gabrielle Union. It was initially about him and Mya Harris, but I changed it to Gabrielle Union, because I felt like they were a cuter couple. Anyway, he and Gabrielle(Raquel-I don't remember what his name was :[ ) were married, and it was off and on with them because Paul was hurt and wasn't able to work anymore, so Gabrielle was the career woman. There was sex of course. Paul runs into Raven Symone, who slowly eases into his life, along with her little brother. He cheats on Raquel later in the story after their fight, with Raven. I miss that story but it's gone, right along with everything else from back then. And you know something? Paul was in a car crash in this story(he survived though)...
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| Paul Walker as Professor in Monster In The Closet |
When Shay-chan tweeted it on Twitter, I thought it was a joke(forgive me). Then I looked at the trending section, I had to click on it immediately. I just couldn't believe it! My body began shaking, my mind couldn't wrap around it! Why Paul? :[ I was thinking back on when Otousan made an insinuation that I had given up on my Irish men(Paul is of Irish descent). As I watch Dracula and Betrayal, both starring Irish males, I think I have given up on my Irish males. I was so upset at how things turned out between me and that guy in Florida(we never dated, he was already in a relationship and lied about it), that I just gave up on Irish males forever. Including Paul over the years... :[ Edit- I actually went to lesbianism in late 2005. I've noticed a pattern that when I drift away from certain celebrities(what I mean by drifting, it means I accepted that we'd never be together), something bad happens! It happened with Heath, with Michael, hell, I can admit that I was slipping away from Wentworth for a bit, and now Paul. I try not to get too attached to a celeb. I think some people were hinting that he was gay, and you know what? That's fine. I love him regardless. Edit- He had a gf! Where are they getting the gay thing from? SMH Typical White folks wanting all men to be gay! I just hate how on those movie websites, that it's filled with soulless ass White folks on there! I could have sworn that on my post about White people, I talk about how they don't have no conscious, like they don't feel anything and how they move on too quickly when their own dies. That Jack Nicholson joke is getting old. It's time to grow up!
I heard that there was a hoax about him dying, a day prior. I've never heard about it though. I thought it was strange at how the first FF movie came on out of nowhere... I just don't like cars(only like to photograph them). I know that at my age, I should learn how to drive. I mean, I know eventually, I will learn but with incidents such as this, it's scary! That's why I prefer walking/running. I even like bike riding but I wouldn't take a chance riding a bike around these assholes. Speeding like some maniacal jackass! Watching all of those FF films, made me love cars at one point, especially Japanese ones. You guys already know how many Whites down here, have attempted to take my life, by driving their cars up on me. I'm like damn, is the fact that I don't trust you enough to want to associate with you, is enough for you to want me dead? What kind of monsters are you? It's like yall don't take human life serious. You claim Blacks don't(which I can concur) but I think people in general are selfish, heartless and are only looking out for themselves. It just sickens me that you can't go outside of your demonic hearts and feel some type of sympathy for a young girl who just lost her father. Life is too short. Do you want to be remembered for being an asshole online?
Edit- This is from my old Live Journal, dated all the way to 2004. I had a sex dream about him in January of 2005 but didn't go into details(don't know why!)
Sunday, November 28th 2004
11:52 PM I loved Noel
I was just watching Noel earlier. Gosh, I love me some Paul Walker. I'd love to have him for Christmas. That would make me one happy ass sista! Because Paul Walker, is, without a shadow of a doubt, one of the finest men that I've ever seen. I'd love to make all his fantasies come true. Not sexually. I mean in a loving way. I'd show him how a real woman could treat him. Give him breakfast in bed, let him wake up to see me standing over him about to kiss him, take showers together , give him the opportunity to have children that White women are having nowadays aka biracial babies, go out with him, chill with him, call him to bother him on his job, take care of the house while he's gone, mmm I wouldn't mind cooking for him either. Man... I would do just about anything for Paul Walker. I am so glad that I taped Noel because my boy Paul was looking so fucking good. I couldn't take my eyes off of him. He is a God!
Okay, enough of my baby daddy. Hmm... what to talk about?! I have no idea. The only thing that is on my mind is Paul Walker. I wonder if I'm going to be able to get some sleep. Dang, while I was watching Noel, they showed his face and I screamed. LMFAO Yes, I did it! I haven't seen any new movies by his ass in about a year or so. Since Timeline, to be exact. So, you can imagine what I'm going through...
5-06
I was watching a little of Joy Ride. Yall know that I love me some Paul Walker. OMG That's my fucking husband!! I'll never give up on marrying his ass. No fucking way!
6-04
i'm up here watching she's all that. i'm looking at my husband paul walker. *drools* i love that man!! he is my baby!! he looks like a black man in this movie. i hope the he quits tanning himself. i like his pale ass skin. *pouts*
6-14
I think on Saturday, I had a dream about Paul Walker and Colin Farrell. See what had happened was, that Colin was walking toward a door, because he saw Paul's shadow on the door, walking like he was drugged. When he got in, he realized that Paul was a zombie. Next thing I saw was Paul jumping from something. Damn, I can't even remember. But, it was an interesting dream. A dream about two hot guys who I adore, hehehe...
March 16th, Sunday 2008- I had a dream last night, that Paul Walker was in it. Wow!!!!!!!!!!! xDDDDDD He was walking with some White dude in one scene. In another, he was in a car and it rose up with water underneath it, because the dude wanted his driver's license or some shit. Another scene, he's walking with the guy again, and they get in a car. The Flavor of Love girls were around the car. Paul was glancing around at each one, smiling. I remember the one who was standing on the rear end side, was one of the twins and on the other side, was Seesinz. xD I was behind Paul and I think I tried to kiss him on the neck and he looked back at me. He was so hot in my dream!
With all of this being said, Rest in Peace my sweet prince Paul. My condolences goes out to his daughter and other family members. Feel free to post your comments below. FF6 is this month and I don't know how I'm going to watch it, without my eyes jerking. Tyrese's tweets got me crying again right now. What a way to end November. SMH... Fuck you 2013!!
With all of this being said, Rest in Peace my sweet prince Paul. My condolences goes out to his daughter and other family members. Feel free to post your comments below. FF6 is this month and I don't know how I'm going to watch it, without my eyes jerking. Tyrese's tweets got me crying again right now. What a way to end November. SMH... Fuck you 2013!!