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Wow... It's the first and what a start. I woke up from a very disturbing dream about my step brother that I can not talk about it here. If this is true, then this makes me even more angrier with the living.
As you guys may not know, the theme this month is eyeballs.👀👁 I am so inspired by the outfit I am going to wear for Halloween!
I made a couple more necklaces. I have no clue how many I will make.
Horror Video Game of the Day- Tales Beyond The Tomb - Route 86
The setting in this game is 1998 yet it had 80s synth music in it. Looks like it was based off Ed Gein because I saw his image flash at the ending.
10/2 I had a dream about the moon getting larger almost colliding with Earth. It was directed at me. It was like I was worshipping it and asked it to help me. I had to look up the meaning.
Dreams involving an abnormally large full moon can be quite vivid and impactful, and they often carry deep symbolic meanings. Here are some interpretations that might resonate with your experiences:
1. Emotional Intensity
The moon is often associated with emotions and the subconscious. A large moon may symbolize heightened feelings or overwhelming emotions that you are experiencing in your waking life. It could reflect a situation where you feel things are out of control or larger than life.
2. Transformation and Change
Full moons are traditionally linked to completion and transformation. An unusually large moon might suggest that you are undergoing significant changes or transitions in your life. This could relate to personal growth, relationships, or new beginnings.
3. Fear of the Unknown
The imagery of a moon that appears ready to collide with Earth can evoke feelings of fear or anxiety about impending change or the unknown. This may point to worries in your life that feel imminent or overwhelming.
4. Communication from the Subconscious
If the moon talks to you in your dreams, it may represent a voice from your subconscious trying to communicate important messages or insights. This could be your mind’s way of processing feelings or experiences you haven’t fully acknowledged.
5. Symbol of Guidance
The moon is often seen as a guide in the darkness. A large, prominent moon might symbolize a source of clarity or guidance in your life, urging you to pay attention to your intuition or inner wisdom.
6. Cultural and Personal Significance
The meaning of the moon can also vary based on personal experiences or cultural beliefs. Reflect on your own feelings and experiences related to the moon. It might hold specific significance for you, such as memories or associations that influence your dreams.
Conclusion
Dreams about a large full moon can be complex and multifaceted.
Was I practicing witchcraft inadvertently in my dream...? I've noticed that ever since this month has started, I am having a lot of spiritually themed dreams.
I got on my bike today. I had to adjust the settings and now I can ride it better(pause). I felt like a ten year old girl all over again.🥹
10/4 My package from Rainbow arrived.
I got Mom something too for her appreciation for being here for me. That dress and skirt are everything! I'm using my online money because at least I can get cashback on spending it.
My step brother's friend came to the house with some food. Man was everything good! I needed that corn. I ate carrots yesterday. I felt so guilty eating all of those burgers last week!😵💫
Korean Horror Movie of the Night- Gonjiam: Haunted Asylum
I thought I had watched this years ago and I didn't. I recognize one of the actors from the first season of Squid Games.
10/5 I started watching Diablo 4. Boy is the game climatic and intense! It's fourteen hours long so I'll be watching this all month. I still want to watch the new Doom game.
Eh, Imma give these to my niece.
Yuck!
10/6 I've been writing a little to my story. I saw a passage that I apparently had written last year that I can't even recall. lol I think once I've finished reading these couple of books, I'll be on my way to finally finishing this book. It's the second one, I am going to have some time to write.
10/7 I did the laundry and errands for Mom. I picked up some eyeball stuff for my Halloween project.
Selfie of the Day
Necklace/Pin- Crapmart
Foundation- Product Test
Eyeshadow- LA Colors, Profusions
Lipgloss- Covergirl
Lipgloss- Covergirl
It's getting spooky! Not my best photo but just felt like taking the pic. I'm embracing the Villain look.
10/8 I'm not even going to ask why was L.A. Knight in my dream last night. He didn't even say YEAH! lmao
I exercised this early afternoon. Man do I feel great!
I came across a PinkPantharess song and I absolutely love it! She reminds me of that Japanese pop group Perfume I fell in love with almost twenty years ago! I love music like this! Makes me want to skip over to November for Club Xin!!
10/9 I made a smoothie and hot damn if this isn't the best one I've made yet! Of course I exercised again. I used the butt lifting underwear to assist me for better lift. I don't need butt pads unlike some people...😏
Allergies have been acting a fool so I took some Benadryl and went to bed. My aunt told me through Mom 'I hope you feel better.' I don't know if it's because of this or what...
10/10 The weather has changed and I absolutely love it! I charged one of my portable chargers because you just never know. All of the others are still at least over 90%.
I'm really not feeling it anymore. I might not even dress up for Halloween this year.
I told Mom I sure miss Party City. And I do. I really do.
10/11 Scarecrows is on Syfy. Keep in mind, I have not seen this movie since the 90s!! I was a kid when I watched this!!
I started reading my Samhain book. It is so interesting learning about pagan and even occult from other cultures. Yes this book will be available for sale after I am finished doing my research with it. It reminds me of that Diablo game.
10/13 Exercised again. Ate a delicious protein dinner.
10/14 Washed my hair today and met with disappointment that my alopecia still hasn't improved. I see that the hair on the opposite side has grown!
Then I exercised and beat my cal count from last year during this month.
I was playing on my tablet when I heard a man's voice. My head perked up and I went into the living room to the kitchen. I told Mom I thought that was my brother but then I realized he is dead...💔😭
10/15 I exercised again today. For some reason, I skipped stretching(don't do this).
I have been thinking about this since yesterday. Ever since I've stopped drawing years ago, I can't draw anymore. I think I am going to start drawing these angels and demons in these books I am reading.
10/16 I helped Mom go through old stuff in the cabinet and she tossed out some of it. I told her she should have kept some of it and made some money off of it. Nostalgia, retro and thrifting is pretty popular right now. She found a gothic mug up there. I had no idea it was up there and no clue who it belongs to. That thing been up there for years. Looks like something I would buy but I didn't buy it. I wonder if it belonged to my late brother. No photo for now.
I joined Mom at the doctor's office. She took too long that I had to go outside because it was too damn cold in that place! Then we went to the store. I got some new gummies: Nature's Bounty Optimal Solution Women's Multivitamin Gummies, 50 mg Collagen, Cellular Energy, Immune & Bone Support, Mixed Berry & Raspberry Flavor. I might go back and get another bottle.
This is a photo of the Stranger Things Chips Ahoy! I got it.
Here's a selfie.
Lipstick- Crapmart
Mascara- Product Test
And my dinner for tonight.
10/19 Man last night, I was listening to a livestream and I heard some Black dude singing with a guitar to a song I haven't heard in 25 freaking years!
I used to listen to this song all the time back then. I forgot all about it but when I heard this guy singing it, I was like wait a minute, I remember this song! I even remember the lyrics! Damn, where did all of the time go...?
My step brother's friend came by again with some more food for us!
I added some cheese to it because I just wanted to. lol
10/20 Nobody will ever tell me that Entergy doesn't s＊ck! Anyways, I exercised today. I hated that I took too many days off.
Video game of the Night- Final Signature
This game was really good! I was so impressed by it! Looked like it could have been a movie!
10/21 Video Game of the Day- THE GRETLOW TAPES
I was hoping I was going to see the actual tapes...
10/22 Done laundry and went to the stores with Mom. I picked up the colorful Oreos. I will share them with my niece's boys.
Selfie of the Day
Sunglasses/Choker/Pin- Crapmart
Top- DollsKill
Video Game of the Evening- Office After Hours
Reminded me of the Backrooms.
Wow, my step brother's friend came over with another plate!
I feel so spoiled! Arigato!😊
10/23 Went to the doctor with Mom. Then to Panera Bread because I had a gift card for there. I didn't bother taking pictures of it because of how small that sh＊t was! I can see why they stopped sending me emails.
I picked this up from Crapmart.
TruSkin Vitamin C Plus Super Serum, 5-Way Rejuvenation with Vegan Collagen
I hope it's good.
Soulmate, loyalty and power
10/24 Today, I went with my Mom and brother to Crapmart. I didn't purchase anything. After that, we went to Panda Express. Here's what I had.
~sighs~ as I mentioned on X, I won't be returning to this location. There was only one Asian person there and she was the cook. When I was here last time, the Asian guy made sure I had fresh and hot food. Now that the Asians are gone and it's Pilgrim heaven with ugly ＊ss White and Hispanic women, the service has gone to sh＊t. Mom wanted her money back and I don't blame her. We can go to the new one in her hometown.
Selfie along with more photos of the Day
Sunglasses/Skull Necklace-Crapmart
Rock Choker- Claire's
Top- ACDC Rag
Pants- S*x Pot Revenge(the ones I got two years ago)
10/25 It rained today. It doesn't really rain towards Halloween in years.
Video Game of the Evening- Burial
Another horror game taking place in Russia.
10/26 I went down a rabbit hole of M0t0wn. This stuff was scarier than these horror movies.
Video Game of the Evening- Doom: Dark Ages
I finally got around to watching this. It reminds me of the last couple of games. As I was watching it, it made me realize that this is my first time watching a Doom game without my brother being alive. He was the one who introduced me to Doom.
10/28 I had a dream where my Mom mentioned the number 88 to me. Well, I looked up the meaning:
The number 88 is a sign that you are meant to be a leader and will naturally attract opportunities for great wealth and abundance into your life.- Source
Expect money to flow to you from unexpected and expected sources. Effortless manifestation is your birthright and you are at the right place at the right time to receive.- Source
Spiritually, the number 88 often signifies abundance, financial prosperity, and achievement, particularly in numerology. It can also represent resurrection, spiritual rebirth, and inner strength. In Chinese culture, 88 is associated with double happiness and good fortune.- Source(AI)
I washed my hair this morning and it didn't take long. There wasn't much hair loss either. I braided my hair back down because I am going to try to dress up this week. The weather is changing and I love it. As soon as it gets cold, I will be going to the garage and other parts of the house to clean up. I work better when it's cold.
I looked up the recipe for wontons. I'm going to start making my own wontons and eggrolls. I'll probably do this next month!
10/29 This morning, I ran errands with Mom. I got me a hot plate from Rouses.
I also spotted this at Rouses. Lotte Koala's March
They didn't have the usual that I like which is Hello Panda but we'll see how this do. The other snacks I got, is in the fridge. I will pass these on to my niece whenever I see her.
Sorry, I couldn't help myself. Then later, I got food from Sonic. A Smashburger with a free Dragon fruit lemonade beverage. Ugh, I ain't gone ever get this weight off of me.
I wore my eyeball necklace and the Black lady from Rouses loved it. lol Just hope my costume gets here in time.
My niece thanked me for giving her kiddos some Halloween Oreos. Of course I was going to get them some. That bag is HUGE!
10/30 I had a dream where I went into this house and ran into a guy who looked like Kyle Kuzma. He talked to me and then mentioned if I was interested in anyone. I said something but it sounded like I rejected him.
While I waited for my package, I exercised and beat my record! Then I relaxed with some yogurt and fruit.
Yay my costume arrived! Woohoo! Stay tuned~
They flock to these theaters disguised as temples, where false saviors tell them fairy tales of good and evil. And people submit to the spectacle, desperate to believe life can be so simple.
Damn Lilith just ethered the Black church!
I finally finished watching Diablo 4. I agree with the consensus that the cutscenes were the best part of the game. As I've said on my 90s Video Games/Movies post, I don't like RPG games at all.
10/31 Happy Halloween! I had a dream that I had a German boyfriend. OMG!! I woke up and watched Abbott and Costello with my brother. lol I went to Crapmart for Mom and then to Dollar General. These folks acting crazy on the road as usual. Glad I didn't put my costume on. Wouldn't want any weirdos taking pictures of me.
So I went as myself. lol
Photo looks shaking because of my nerves... The lady at Crapmart said I remind her of Kerry Washington. Whoa... lol
I dressed up for Halloween and wore my clothes from the one and only...
ACDC RAG!! 
It's ACDC Rag x 6%dokidoki
I did not wear makeup. I didn't feel like it. It's cold and didn't want to remove makeup. I made the necklace myself and debating on if I should sell it or not.
I wanted to watch some more Doom, maybe even a movie but my period started so I ended up baking my eye cookies and chilled for the rest of the day.
Eye see you!
And this concludes this post. A whiff of sadness just swept upon me. I hope I don't drift back into depression again. I don't know what's wrong with me. Anyways, if you've found this post of use, please feel free to comment, share and submit a donation. Au revoir~✌